Below are the 13 most recent journal entries recorded in fed x's LiveJournal:

Thursday, September 14th, 2006
2:56 pm	Their are two, truly, unbelievable situation's with this dramatic load of steaming shit. First, Nathan, who has the audacity to betray two of his fellow "brothers". In their core trust, honor, and respect for them as men. Then, and as well, takes advantage of two friends of the opposite sex. In times of complete and utter haze, a mixed drink of depression and troubled relationships, with a lemons of insecurity. Its a shame, I am, personally humbled, that you will never have a backbone or know what it is to be a man's man or even reach that adult you claim to be. Regardless of what lies you want the world to hear, so that you might sleep, dreaming of being loved. What ever happend, kiss or more, was still a stab in the back on your part right into two different stories and levels of loving relationships. Which will bring me to my second pile of remorsefull droppings. I am saying this for the record. All of you are worthless, faulted friendships. You lived lies as I entered this cycle, slapping me in the face. No respect, "but that is just how were friendly". So spit on my feet some more, cowards. Try and make it all fine again and you will come to see that seeds of double faced bitches, sprout to sunflowers of lies, tears, hate and pain. The weeds will die and allow real roses in love and sweet nector of unwavering compainship to previal. "Someone is going to get physically hurt." - when will you realize your already there- just believe me the truth, which can only come from souls that you have deep connections with, not animals backed into a corner with no were to run. (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 31st, 2006
1:50 am	who keeps spinning my world? were am i going to end up after this spin cycle. homeless, heartless, friendless, scared, disapointed, broke, alone, and in tears but ill still be smilin kyle. i said goodday (Comment on this)
Sunday, June 18th, 2006
1:52 am	keep on rocking me baby WOW who would have thought id be so lucky. I got a nano, great friends and ones who actually love me. it makes me feel gay but in a good way not a broke back mountain love your cowboy way. AND MOST OF ALL, after talking and actually telling the one i love what im feeling we were able to relate, funny how that works guess i cant just take it out on the fucktards at ACB. fuck i love that girl, id be an orphan without her. fuck i love my family, friends and bandiate. OH ya and i got an appt. thats really nice but hard to hold food in. lol I LOVE TACOS that is all. gtg its late and i got to build a pool. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 3rd, 2006
5:00 pm	i so want a beer bong and some god damn relaxation. (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 9th, 2006
5:14 pm	just a small part of the puzzle, which is my love for you DyeImpy101 (5:00:57 PM): tell me a story xLaLasREVENGEx (5:01:45 PM): there once was a great big dinosaur named kyleus xLaLasREVENGEx (5:01:45 PM): he was a very handsome dinosaur xLaLasREVENGEx (5:01:45 PM): one day he was scavvaging other dinosaurs houses for eggs to eat xLaLasREVENGEx (5:01:48 PM): when he met the beautiful taradactile named lauren xLaLasREVENGEx (5:02:41 PM): he tried to eat her babied eggs DyeImpy101 (5:02:41 PM): aww thats the cuties thing ever laur xLaLasREVENGEx (5:02:48 PM): but then he saw how pretty she was xLaLasREVENGEx (5:03:03 PM): so he didnt eat her eggs xLaLasREVENGEx (5:03:09 PM): instead they made their own batch of eggs together DyeImpy101 (5:03:10 PM): I LOVE U DyeImpy101 (5:03:22 PM): thats your vowes xLaLasREVENGEx (5:03:39 PM): I AM NOT SAYING HAT AT MY WEDDING my story... And one by one I watched every constellation die And there I was frozen, standin in my backyard Face to face, eye to eye, starin at the last star I should've known, walked all the way home To find that she wasn't here, I'm still all alone No matter where I am, no matter what I do I'm always coming back home to you They can leave me for dead they can take away my true I'm always coming back home to you Through the lies and the sins that ride the wind that blew I'm always coming back home to you As sure as the life in the garden that you grew I'm always coming back home to you No matter where I am, no matter what I do I'm always coming back home to you If only I had known what you already knew I'm always coming back home to you From the heaven I've had to the hell I been through I'm always coming back home to you I'm always coming back home to you Current Mood: without Current Music: atmosphere (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 10th, 2006
11:54 pm	the decay of sacredness i wish i may, i wish i might have the wish that i wish tonight. What ever happened to chivelry? When a man had to balls to put his lady before himself, when it was a code to be curtious towards another and when marrage was a blessed and sacred affair. i feel that this society is lacking romance. Im not asking for the fake shit u see in movies, just for real men to stand up and see a woman as a holy entity. and for women to loose the whole dyke power trip shit an realize that when i hold a door open for u its not because your weak and pitiful, its because i care about you or its my way of being a gentleman. this little speach isnt about me or anything direct in my life just thoughts. but relates to my best friend getting married at a young age to a girl who i dont approve of, and he is sceptical about. dont get me wrong if i saw that he had found true love id slap him on the ass and give him the best bachelor party ever. but it seems more like virgin attachment gone way wrong. oh ya and im not the best man, which is fucked up cause um ya i met him first kevin u fucker lol. whatever. i just dont want to see another divorce ruin lives again. the big question is do i tell him that i dont approve, or plant seeds of doubt,mabbee pull a saving silvarman or just sit back and let it fall apart eventually. if love is a labor ill slave till the end. ps. lauren baby your my hearts cherished desire. call me emo call me a fag call me romantic, but it takes a real man who loves himself enought to fully love a woman and treat her like shes his dying wish. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, January 6th, 2006
9:59 am	hello LJ, i can always talk to u and get out what i need to say delicatly enough not to hurt the person i mean the least too. I know all my entries are about one person, and this is because im affectuated with that one person. i personaly starve and crave for attention, and feel like the person i have to marry has to feel that same way. ur personality is kinda flirty lauren, and i get jelous, and feel disrespected. u yell at me for ignoring u, but i feel deep down that u push me off to the side frequently. whos the one always going to u for kisses, whos the one always on there knees kissing ur feet. but wait, im ungratefull, ur love is expressed i see it all the time, your just more idependant. i need to learn this. but a side of me want you to act like me, and thats were the drunken kyle comes from. i said fucked up shit they werent worded right but still were feelings that i had. i compare u, and thats rediculous, because i really trully feel that u blow anything ive ever had completly out of the water. i need ur love to help me, im the lost one. im the needy virgin, but ive seen that side of u and feel like i have to pull it out of u, which isnt true? idk i dont like to type this shit, id rather talk to u face to face. all i know is that when i kiss u my lips tingle as if theyve never kissed before. forgive and forget, and talk to me please. i dont know what your thinking, im to dumb to understand, i feel this way because i still am learning shit about u, i dont like feeling that ur undiscovered, such as the whole bubble thing. im rediculous i know, but its because im so dumbfounded by ur bueity, that i forget to spell lol. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, December 1st, 2005
2:35 pm	I LOVE HOCKEY i feel like i have two sets of friends, sometimes i wished they mold into one but whatever its out of my hands. but last night was insane, lets just say that i had a little captian in me. and after a bowl of zach's fine grass plus 8 beer bongs that i finished in like one fucking gulp we watched them good old owls all by ourselves with some kids mom, weres the team spirit? do u ever feel like we r missing out on something that bigger schools have? again whatever im having to much fun, i gotta study. anyway back to the story, that was it cause i dont remember the ride home, or the shower or falling alseep, with chris and brit. doing it like right in my face. all i know is that i woke up with my shirt inside out and backwards and i was still fucked up. lol GO MOTHER FUCKIN OWLS! oh ya and i got kicked out twice. fucking security, all i wanted to do was go on the ice! stupid fuck. (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 24th, 2005
3:10 pm	HAPPY HOLIDAYS So, the fun has begun, i woke up and feel like a zombie in a parent trap of bordum. Cant wait to get back to FAU and have fun again, this holiday sucks even more cause we dont even get presents, just insanily lame family talk, the same we have every year. FUN FUN FUN. I cant wait to steal a bottle of wine and get fucked up. hehehe welcome home son. (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 13th, 2005
4:49 pm	home this weekend was fun with kev, jon is so wipped that he didnt even hang out that much, which was retarted. cause he was the whole reason for me coming home. however me and the other nfm kids had some drunken fun, i even threw a huge ass mountain dew at the manager of a taco bell, cause i thought he was kicking us out, fire in the hole never gets old. the whole weekend i felt broken,especially at night, like something was missing a part of me was seperated from the body. i missed lauren, alot. whent and saw jarhead with my family, it was really wierd watching him jerk off infront of my mom, "hey, it looks like a penis, only smaller." lol funniest line in the movie. Got a condom talk afterwords, u know, fucking parents, alway think im going to fuck up... got back saw lauren, everything felt like home again, its a fucked up world when school feels more comforting then home. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 8th, 2005
10:38 am	Yesterday was the only second time in my life that i can say that i was horrified. After many hours of worrying, its just going to be painfull but will adventually go away. BIG SIGH OF RELIEF.... (Comment on this)
Monday, October 17th, 2005
11:54 pm	keeping up on the times Havent told my story in a while so here come the random thoughts, whent home to fm saw some old friends they changed or i did one of the two, crazy night neither the less. Aside, im falling hard, its scary. but i like it. NOWLin' is the shit. i cant wait for holloween horror nights im going to piss myself for sure. I Said good day. (Comment on this)
Monday, September 19th, 2005
10:18 pm	looky Ive always wanted one and guess what now i do. no i can write my shitty thoughts down. Current Mood: bored Current Music: taking back sunday (2 Comments |Comment on this)